About

My name is Shelley and I live in the flatland of the prairies in the middle of Canada.  I lost my husband, Daryl, to a cancer called Multiple Myeloma on April 5, 2013. MM is a cancer that can be treated but not cured. Many patients can live up to 5 years or more if the treatments are successful. Unfortunately for Daryl, his cancer was very aggressive and he finished the race after only 14 months. It was a very intense 14 months. Daryl was very sick for most of that time plus dealt with a large amount of bone pain. It broke my heart to see how much he had changed physically from his diagnosis to his death.

Now I find myself walking a journey alone. I’ve never been alone before. I went from living at home at 18 to being married. Daryl and I would have celebrated our 38 wedding anniversary on October 10, 2013. Living alone is much harder than I ever imagined it would be. Going to bed alone…waking up alone…eating alone…watching tv alone…shopping alone. And when I am around people, I still feel alone. The empty spot inside of me doesn’t go away when other people are around. The deep sadness within me does not leave when I laugh. I am a changed person. I will never be like I was before Daryl passed away.

During this journey I hope I can offer some insight to others about what a widow experiences in her day to day life.

Thank you for visiting my blog! Buckle up! I’ve been told it will be a roller coaster ride!